Do you ever get so horny that you don’t know what to do with yourself? Well that is where I am tonight. I feel so wanting to be hard and sucked and fucked. I want to be touched and teased. tied down and made to do things. I want someone to stick something up my ass to make me squirm. I am even willing to let a perfect stranger of a woman to seduce me to orgasm…..how crazy it that? It is a very strange feeling………
In need 
I can’t seem to turn this off. This horniness. I wake up with the thoughts and go through my day with the thoughts….Right now I am thinking of visiting a toy store to buy some toys to add to my sexual adventures I want to do. Women are so beautiful, the curves of their bodies, the softness of their skin, the sound of their voice is all intoxicating.
I mean my whole life I have been horny but these last 2 years it seems like someone turned up the dial. I can’t seem to quench the desire at all. I want to experiment with finding ways to get an orgasm or to give her an exciting orgasm that reaches new heights.
Stuck in the thoughts and life is interrupting LOL.
Stress affects me in different ways, job, people, tennants…..each one affects me. How I deal with the stress varies. I will go and drink which is fun and when I drink I get horny. I will go for a bike ride and burn it off that way, exercise will take away a lot of the stress, or I will just masturbate or have sex. I like sex, it really melts away the stress and anxiety in such a way that amazes me.
Sex and the whole play of it, makes me smile when nothing else will. Call me addicted to it and the varieties it comes in. Today I am stressed and I will have to masturbate or go for some kind of workout to release it. Just venting a little on this blog, it seems to help.
Here i am at the end of my day wanting. I want to have sex, to feel the orgasm, the joyful experience of the other having an orgasm. Ok, i am thinking about sex, I had a few drinks. It gets me in the mood to have or make love, which ever you want to call it. So what am i to do, tonight. I don;’t know. Have you ever been at a place you want to be held and fondled and made to do things you only can imagine, well that is where i am at. Just try me I am willing……… well you know my mood. Have a good night…
When I get horny, which by the way is very often, I try to find ways to release it. Some of the ways I do this is going to a rest area and masturbate in my car. This in a way is exhibition, which I find very exciting. Just the thought of someone watching me which by the way has happened, turns me on and I have an orgasm pretty quick. I come up with different fantasies when I do this. I get more daring when I have had a few drinks, I guess my imagination gets fueled to stretch and act out. This is why I think BDSM would be a good fit for me. I need to look for more challenges and try to get around a group who are into this.
Sex and orgasms are a wonderful thing why do people make fun of those who choose to express themselves differently. Or even masturbation like it is a dirty thing to do. Self expression is a right that we each have and should find what makes us happy. I know for the first time in my life I am glad that I am willing to search out and express myself in this area. It is great to get these new experiences and come up with new ones, or read of how others are.
Life is good, and today is a better day for me. I just wanted to say that I think a womans body is beautiful, a turn on, and fuel for my imagination.
I haven’t been sleeping well lately and it makes it hard to control my addictions that want to invade my life. I have found myself drinking more and more, liking the feeling it gives you. But I think that it adds to the sleeping problem. So with the drinking I add some pills to knock me out so I can sleep but all that does is gives me the idea that I actually slept better when I didn’t. So when I am tired it is harder to resist drinking and eating more than I should. It is a damn cycle that is starting to get away from me. When I am like this I get horny, because it is a way to de-stress myself, at least that is how I see it. So I find ways to masturbate, or different ways to stimulate myself to orgasm.
Depression sets in times like this, I have stopped exercising making excuses for why not. But I love the feeling when I go for a bike ride or hike. All this makes me hate myself and who I am. I hate the ups and downs of depression. I do stupid things when I am like this. I just want someone to hold me and make it all go away……..
Then there are days and weeks that are really good and I feel in control, but right now I do not feel in control at all, what is in control is my addictions. I believe that I may become an alcoholic or on the verge of one if I am not careful……..I have the makings of one…..
I am just struggling probably like a lot of people out there that keep their struggles to themselves.
Sex, what does that mean? I know it has different meanings for different people. So are very traditional in their views while others have a more adventure approach. I like to think that I am in the latter category. I believe in pushing the limits of what you can do and are willing to try. Again that boring factor I must stay away from.
What do people do in their private times alone with their thoughts, you know while at work and no one is around to notice, or while driving the car, or even taking a walk in the park. Is is different for men as is it for woman? Do woman really masturbate at work when no one is around? Do woman crave to have someone inside them making them moan with pleasure? I am curious, because sex is something that is very enjoyable.
Are there some woman who would wear a dress and no panties just because they are a bit horny and just want to tease a look from some people. Do woman get horny and wet thinking about sex to the point of distraction. I know as a man I get distracted at times thinking about the act of making love. About giving oral sex and having her have and orgasm that shakes her body. This to me is a great pleasure to bring a woman to that point.
I am just wondering if woman really have erotic fantasies about such things………
Here is another day, I tend to be shy around people I don’t know, but at the same time I would love to get to know more people. I want to meet interesting people, most people I know with the exception of a few are rather boring, your run of the mill nothing exciting types. I want to meet people who look and act normal in public but in private have a wild side. Not crazy break the law but erotic, sexual fantasy type stuff. Daring, will to try things, nothing shocks them. Also smart and have an intelligent conversation with.
I know they are out there, I guess I just need to find the right places to meet these people. I get bored easy, not with people but with things. I lose the thrill in the activity after a bit and need to stretch the boundaries a little each time. I don’t like being like others, I like acting out my imaginations.
I know there are others out there like me, I just want to meet more of them. I think they are the interesting ones. Because we all need excitement in our lives and for some of us that excitement comes in different forms and fashions.
BDSM to me even though I have not gone there yet doesn’t scare me, it intrigues me, that it is not a perversion but an expression to break out of the norm into the unknown, lifting the boundaries I believe I could do that, i think i would do that given the opportunity.
Just looking for the expression in life.
Getting out of bed is definitely one of them, that is a struggle. But once I am up and moving I do pretty good. One of the things I find myself struggling with is planning my day to accomplish a small project, other than going to work. I have to convince myself to do all day long, then when I get home I am more than likely to accomplish the project. But If I don’t I can usually convince myself that I don’t want to do it even though I should. Am I the only one like this? It seems to me everyone else has no problems with working from sun up to sun down…..
The other thing that keeps getting in my way is I find myself always horny. I becomes a distraction. I am not saying that having sex or making love is not a good thing but I find myself wanting to do it often, like in the morning, afternoon, evening, night. I want to do it in places that are exciting, and daring. Try different things, wanting to pleasure my partner in ways I have not before….How can I not think so much about it, or it not be a distraction…….or is it that I still have some unfulfilled desires that have not been met yet…..
Sounds like I want therapy
Just writing my thoughts down, it does help……
On another day, and weekend has passed, it gets hard at times when you get discouraged. I can feel depression knocking at my door and it frightens me that it will come one day and stay for good. So I find myself trying to stay one step ahead of it. Some days I am successful but others I feel like I get tackled by it 
. I have not found a good remedy for this to this day. I can see the patterns but have not figured out how to break them, to stop them from happening or to slow their frequency.
I do find that when I can get the strength to accomplish something it helps a lot. The mere fact to get something done like a project is a stresser but when it is done at the end of the day makes me feel good and relieves the depression a bit. It is the get up and get going that is the mountain I always face each and every day.
Pills don’t help with that I have found, they just make you not want to move at all. So here is to all those that share this struggle, one day at a time, and a hope of a good day as each day begins and ends.
